Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Just Stop, Stop Punishing Me
5:05 PM
yesterday was a hell day.my love life is complicated. hate and anger is the word to discribe my family feelings towards him. and that's his feelings towards my family.all this started ever since "that" happen.im not even allowed to meet him animore. but i really miss himso i risk it. but end up.some mulut murai..saw me on the bike with him.tak sempat pergi mana2 pun!its different now.. last time.. i can just go out with him anytime im free.now.. haram. i have to lie just to meet him.and oh yah, the day before yesterdae. i dream about getting caught being with him.and it did happen.my dad ask my sis to send me to my aunt's place.and there...i saw that mulut MURAI!i just feel like punching her face. suka nar jaga tepi kain orang.kain sendiri tak terurus.grrr.so mad.my dad threw a solid toy on my leg. and the bruise is obvious! that is just 0.01%of what i should get.when i got home. he scream at my face. i see hell. i just deny that..that wasn't me.swear and swear and swear and he sort of believe me. but i know he is stil doubting me.yesterdae, he said this to me.." if one more time you lie to me, ayah akan sumpah adik. ayah tak kesah. i don't care ifi lose u!"my heart breaks into million pieces.well,let the rest of the story be a secret.first i lost my dadsecond...i almost lost my boyfriend.third i lost my mom.fourth..i lost my sister.she wants to live on her own. she dont wants to know anithingor other words..nak enjoy,nak susah..apaper sendiri.used to be so close. but i dun see it animore.i have nobody now.my secondary family? no way. i simply hate them to the core.im just so confuse.if i have the money..i will leave this family for sure. go far far awaysince they don't need me in this familyi am no longer the daughter in the family.so.. it doesnt matter.aniway...kakak..if you are reading this..CONGRATULATIONS for your GRADUATION.you've made ayah proud.atleast he got someone in the family to be proud of.
Name:(Ayu)
