Monday, November 17, 2008
the ups and the down
4:10 PM
Life has been complicated for me.Honestly, i myself have no idea what i want and what to expect
to this complication. i want to make it right. but how? nothing is that simple any more. i know that most of you don't understand . but those who understand the conflicts to my fairytale. i appreciate it. i have no right to say anything to the person who has been supporting me since i was a Lil girl. I've done the most sinful thing in my life. i deserve being deserted and shouted at. he can say harshful stuff to me. i listened. but day by day, the grudges piled up. and I'm sorry if one day I'm just gonna walk away. and i know i dun have the will to support the Lil kid at home. but i want the best out of him.that is why I'm still at home despite getting hurt all the time. i can't wait to be successful, that day he's going to shut up and believe me. it doesn't matter anymore if anybody gonna love me or not. i don't give a damn.praying to god every night without a miss so that one day, the light gonna shine upon me once again.Insyallah.Amin.
Name:(Ayu)
